tornado watch..

Well, our first severe weather without Sean around. As of right now, there is heavy rain and thunder and lightning. Just peaked out the window and saw flashes of blue lightning. It is beautiful. In this kind of weather, you can hardly see what is infront of you until you are almost right on top of it.

The girls and the cats are sequestered downstairs. Sarina feels more comfortable there. She was freaking out majorly when she called me at the library half an hour before closing time. She wanted to me come home. I told her that I will be back when I can. I called her up at around 6.00 pm to to tell her to round up all the cats and to look at the local channel for news on the weather. Oh the power just went out. Okay just a power surge. It came back..heard the girls downstairs calling for me. They will be okay :) Insyallah.

Anyway, back to what I was saying, she managed to round up the cats and a while later she called me in this shaky voice. She called me twice more before we finally closed the library 15 minutes early. I called once to make sure she has all the necessary stuff put in the basement, like flashlight, drinking water and all the essentials. Alayna, the babysitter picked the phone up. She said that Sarina was freaking out majorly and I told Alayna that Sarina is very afraid of storms like these. She said that she can see that...hahahha. Anyway, good thing Candee was of the same mind as I was. Closed the library :)

And here we are. Tried calling Sean on his cell, but he must not have it turned on. Oh well. Brought the laptop downstairs and the sutpid thing wouldn't start up. But how much you want to bet that when all this is over..it will start proper..hahaha. I am not hearing any hail yet. Hopefully we won't get it. Across the state line, they have gotten golf ball size hail up in Nebraska. We were supposed to have that too, just penny size. The rainfall is very heavy. The roof is leaking near the fireplace. The roofer couldn't detect any leak but I bet that because this house is old, it has shifted somewhat and no matter what you do it will leak at that precise spot. Only alternative is to jack the foundation. But that will be a project for the future owner..hehehe.

Oh by the way, I was so angry yesterday morning. Received a phone call from one of the ladies, accusing us of ripping them off. I said, what?! See told you that we were supposed to pay for their July premium right? It was around $450 each. Anyway, she called me up and told me to send her the check. I said , sure but I need to a copy of the invoice for our tax and records purposes. She said no..uh uh..she is not going to send us anything. I said, I need that if you want me to pay for it, because that was what the accountant wanted see.

She insisted that I didn't need it and I told her that we're not the ones who came up with this anyway. Finally she said, that what we will see is the premium being lower than what was quoted before in June, which was based on a group plan. Now that we are all on individual planes..for some reason, their premiums are lower than ours. Which is fine..but here's what made me so mad. Before she told me the amount, she said that she will not be ripped off by us and since we put them in this bind, she wants us to pay for both July and August premiums , since both added together would still come out lesser than what we had thought. See, if she had asked me nicely and not accused me of ripping her off, I would be more than happy to discuss it with Sean. I mean, I know that they could be in a difficult situation..but she didn't have to an ass and accused me of that.

Ripping her off...we didn't have to pay for anything after July. We are now closed. You are out of a job. You do not work for us anymore. So in not so many words..well actually I said a lot of words..hahha. I said, excuse me..ripping you off..how is that? We provided everything for both of you. All expenses paid for even on days that you do not work..and how is that we are ripping you off. That's when she tried to back peddle and say that we are responsible for putting her in this bind..I was so close to saying that it was THEIR fault that we closed the clinic. Sean, for all his good intentions, didn't want to fire them, and in his mind, this is the only way. Go figure. I know what all of you would say..I have said it, but he has made his mind up. Frankly speaking, I am happy. Even if it has some repercussions. And so, here i was sputtering with anger..didn't know what to say first..so I told her that i didn't want to even go there. But I did tell her that if it were up to me, I wouldn't not have paid anything at all. I would not have given anything after June 30th. But Sean being the Mr. Nice Guy that he is decided to give both of them that.

Yep, I felt so good after I told her that. That shut her up and I didn't want to waste my time with her anymore, asked for the amount, and I hung up on her. I tell you, I was shaking with anger. I never felt so much rage in me. I looked at the time and saw that Sean wouldn't be in the office just yet..so I called up Carrie and I was foaming at the mouth. She was so surprised because she had never heard me like that before. I went over to Mrs. Collins and told her in a lot of words..what had happened and boy was she mad too. hehehhe. And I called Sean later and told him that he needs to talk to his ex-employee and straightened her out about paying only for July. But I am saying this, if he caves in and gave what that lady wanted, all hell will break lose, and that is not spoken in jest. I HAVE HAD IT.

Oh one final thing, Sarina finally had her ears pierced for the third time and hopefully this will work :) She looks like a little gypsy..hahah. She was so determined to get it done.

stressed out lah....sori hor..

sarah modelling my handiwork :) black swarovki's bracelet

well...another entry after weeks of silence..hehe. actually i am very very tired. both physically and mentally. tired having to deal with the office stuff and tired because i am working at the library and not getting enough sleep. okay, the part about not getting enough sleep is actually my own fault. but what to do..i am wired that way. as much as it is somewhat fun in away of doing whatever i want when sean is not around, i discovered that i cannot go to sleep easily. i tend to stay way past midnight and falling asleep between 1-2.30 am each night. it is worse when i get caught up reading a book.

i am also fed up with things around here too..but nothing that i can do just yet. have to wait for another year before we decided where we would like to be. nothing major, just the usual nonsense. i don't bother talking to sean's ex-employee anymore. if they want something, the can him. i don't want to talk to them. and if sean wants to pay for their health insurance for the past mth...he can deal with them. i am not going to have anyhthing to do with it. unless, of course, i have no choice. but we'll see.

sarah will start her two day preschool programme on the 16th of august. sarina will be in 3rd grade. they are growing up veru fast. i still cannot believe that i 2 kids, let alone a child in 3rd grade..hehe. sarina has been very helpful this summer. last year, she spent a lot of time going to the pool and staying with the bickers. this year, for some reason, i felt that i should limit sarina's time with naomi. entah eh..i sort of felt like naomi seems to take advantage of sarina..but if she has to choose anyone to spend her birthday together..she will always choose sarina. i know this is just a defensive mother talking..but i am trying to raise sarina to 'not just follow the norm'. i would want her to be her own person..to feel that is okay to be different. in beliefs, ideologies and whatever..but of course..it must within the boundaries.

so, this summer, she has been hanging out with me at the library. for however long i have to be here, she'll stay with me except for the evenings. so now she knows how to shelf books accordingly, she knows how to cut the plastic covers for the books and she does odd jobs for the other librarians. they seem to like having her around too..which i think is definitely a blessing. where else can i bring my 7 year old daughter to work and work with me while i am working..heheh.





since i have been too busy with everything else, i have no time to get involve with another hobby of mine. beading. like the bracelets that i have made here. i really enjoy making these. i find it relaxing and also, kinda exciting when i get to see the final product. i do sell them..but only when ppl want something i guess. other than that, i just made things for friends and myself. been meaning to so something since a while back..but have not been able to complete the task. but insyallah..one at a time. maybe this mth will be different. even so, with me trying to cut back my hours here, i still have to work about 79 hours this mth. for a part timer..this is a lot :) but rezeki jangan di tolak eh..haha. there were a couple of times where i thought that i would like to quit altogether. but somehow..i do not have the heart to tell my director. she is such a nice person and easy to work with. like i said, saperlah kasi datang keje bawak anak sekali..hahaha.


i also know that i owe a tag..i will do it in the next entry. i have scanned some old pictures that i have of me. they are really old..and blurry pulak tu..my mom was the one who took the pictures..hahaha. okaylah..sib baik today is a very quiet day at the library. so i figured might as well try and update here before i really drag my feet :) to all..have a good weekend okay :) and happy national day..merdeka! merdeka!..hahahahhahahah... oh forgot..if you want to see more of what i had done..you can go here :)