well, the past two weekends we have been nursing stomach flu and cold attack. last weekend, went to salina to spend the night there. sean had to go to the facility in ellsworth KS and larned too. kinda okay lah..going to central kansas. reminded me of the times living in hutch and inman. it was so windy. the girls loved it being cooped up in the hotel room. took them swimming the evening before at the pool. before going to the hotel, we went to wilson lake. went to the beach..it was a beautiful day. not that warm but the sun felt so nice. the girls were skipping rocks and i lay on the sand and read my book.
pastu nampak sand terpelanting2..turned my head..nampak sarah digging the sand. she said she was digging for treasure. then sarina wanted sean to show her how to skip rocks..entah camana tah..sarina lempar batu hit sean nyer crotch..terbaring japs kawan tu..i ketawa terbahak2...dunno why lah but cam very funny gitu..hahha. kesian jugak nengok sean. but he got better after a while.
well, what can i say..i have not been blogging because..because..because..ermm...my mind is on a lot of things lah. each day is getting more and more difficult for sean to cope..that is going into the clinic. for me..everytime i see him that way..it affected me in more ways than one..that plus the mounting paper work that i have to do but have not finished doing yet. the doctor said that things will get more and more difficult before it starts getting better. which is so true.
and then dunno why...i am not so sure why ppl get upset over things that are so remeh. in the outside world as well as in here, the cyberworld. it is getting to be so ridiculous you know. it like, whoah man...chill you know. if you do not want ppl to read your blog..just set it for private viewing aper..actually, i dunno why i got annoyed..hehe. it's none of my beeswax anyway..lantak asal these ppl bahagia.
saturday today and i am at work...very quiet so far. banyak pulak baby showers kat sini. so far today there are already two..the past days tak yah cakap lah..maybe it is because spring is here eh..hehe. new life beginnings.
funny incident when i went home two evenings ago. sean was under the blanket on the couch. the girls were nowhere to be seen. it was quiet. asked sean where they were and he said that they're somewhere upstairs. saw sean watching scoobydoo the movie and asked him why was he watching that? he said that the girls had it on and then decided that they wanted to go upstairs and told him to watch the movie for them. asked him why he didn't turn it off, he said that he was too lazy to get up and get the remote to change the channels..haha. anyway, sarah came down and saw me. she hugged me and said hi and i saw that she had drawn on her arm using a blue marker.
sean was smiling and said that sarina told him that they were going to play 'make over'. then sarah turned her face up to look at me and masyallah...i saw that sarina had used a red marker and drew a moustache yang melenting punyer on sarah's face pastu ada freckles all around it. sarina said that sarah is mr. moustache and that's not all..she liften sarah's arm up and i was speechless..she said..see mommy sarah has armpit hair'..then she laughed like a maniac..habis ketiak sarah she colored red too..both sides for effects...told her to get a wash cloth and scrub it off sarah...hehe.
anyway..i am not sure how often i will be updating this blog. it all depends on how i am physically and mentally i guess. apologies to all if it is kinda sporadic eh :) till later..hugs to everyone.
Saturday, April 21, 2007
Friday, April 06, 2007
my pc is back :)
yeeehhhhhhaaaaa!..hehe. semalam sean dah format the hard drive. well more like installing the new windows software on the new hard drive that i bought at walmart. wanted to get windows vista..but he said this would be fine for now. and sometime next week, insyallah will buy new motherboard and processor and all that lah..so that we can upgrade the system upstairs. we'll see.
well, what can i say. i am in a funk...betul2 punya funk lah. that is why..my apologies goes to those bloggers that always sudi to come and read my ramblings. i have not been very ermm apa tu orang kata, very good at leaving my comments on your blogs. but at least for now i do read what you have written..hehe. cuma sometimes bila nak tinggal kan comment kan..mesti ada keje lain yang i nak kena buat..well maklumlah pakai pc kat leberi.
ni besok nak kena pergi rumah sean nyer parents. but sean and his parents are not happy with one another. sean with his worries, while his parents pulak nak cakap dengan dia on the phone, kira nak tanyer khabar and kasi sokongan..but the thing is, sean ni degil sikit lah. also, i think both of us know what his parents will say and it is not what he needs to hear right now. either way, i did bilang kat sean...sooner or later..he has to talk to them kan.. now my mother in law cam dah merajuk kat i. i know that she would like us to be there for easter..but sean cakap he nak go drive somewhere, a short break for us lah.. i bilang kat my in law, she seems okay but i know that she is not. when i talked to ehr on the phone...the reception is somewhat cold lah. takper lah.... lama2 nanti dia will warm up balik dengan kiter.
another thing that is bringing me down is that fact that this summer..nampak2 nyer cam i am not going home gitu. dah nak masuk 3 tahun dah...well..let's see..jan 2005..oh sori..dah masuk 2 tahun dah. talked to sean about it..he said not sure sebab his new job takder cuti so have to compile the hours and days...and he said realistically..it is better to go back next summer. dah..spoil i nyer mood. but then he said..how about going back this winter..time christmas....i cakap jugak kat dia..i have to go back..i miss home lah kan.. then he diam. i also mentioned that he doesn't have to go back with me aper..hehe. i can bring the girls by myself...but he macam cool to that idea. entah lah...boring ader..sedih ader...so in the end..all i can say is we'll see.
today..sean gi keje keluar pepagi..5.40 am. he starts work at 7.00..abis pukul 5 or 5.30 gitulah... lunch half hour. nanti sampai rumah pukul 6.30 gitu. all depends on the traffic. so pagi tadi..lepak punya lepak..around 10 am baru bangun buat keje sana sini. ingatkan nak keje kat luar but weather pulak sejuk seh. some of my hostas dah nampak frozen dah. mintak2 tonight will be better. tekak ni pulak teringin nak makan mee goreng. so apa lagi..buatlah mee kuning. i double the recipe...ah i think dapat jugak lah dalam 3 k3 4 kilo gitu. sarina helped me with the pasta machine. pastu terus buat mee goreng. maybe sometime next week, nak buat mee rebus sebab ada belen mee kuning tu. kak za and nora..kalau you all dekat..leh kasi mee kuning satu dua kilo...hahaha.
sarina is on spring break..tulah..weather pulak tak best..kalau tak dah suruh dia main kat laur jer..memekak kat rumah..main bola lah..tonyeh si sarah lah..sarah pulak asyik terpekik terlolong jer...ishhh...bingit..nak nak time tengah in this funky mood..aper lagi PMs lah ni..hehe. okaylah..nak nengok apa diorang tengah buat. i suruh they all kemas katil sendiri..last i heard, they were rolling the ball up and down the stairs...okaylah..later ppl.
well, what can i say. i am in a funk...betul2 punya funk lah. that is why..my apologies goes to those bloggers that always sudi to come and read my ramblings. i have not been very ermm apa tu orang kata, very good at leaving my comments on your blogs. but at least for now i do read what you have written..hehe. cuma sometimes bila nak tinggal kan comment kan..mesti ada keje lain yang i nak kena buat..well maklumlah pakai pc kat leberi.
ni besok nak kena pergi rumah sean nyer parents. but sean and his parents are not happy with one another. sean with his worries, while his parents pulak nak cakap dengan dia on the phone, kira nak tanyer khabar and kasi sokongan..but the thing is, sean ni degil sikit lah. also, i think both of us know what his parents will say and it is not what he needs to hear right now. either way, i did bilang kat sean...sooner or later..he has to talk to them kan.. now my mother in law cam dah merajuk kat i. i know that she would like us to be there for easter..but sean cakap he nak go drive somewhere, a short break for us lah.. i bilang kat my in law, she seems okay but i know that she is not. when i talked to ehr on the phone...the reception is somewhat cold lah. takper lah.... lama2 nanti dia will warm up balik dengan kiter.
another thing that is bringing me down is that fact that this summer..nampak2 nyer cam i am not going home gitu. dah nak masuk 3 tahun dah...well..let's see..jan 2005..oh sori..dah masuk 2 tahun dah. talked to sean about it..he said not sure sebab his new job takder cuti so have to compile the hours and days...and he said realistically..it is better to go back next summer. dah..spoil i nyer mood. but then he said..how about going back this winter..time christmas....i cakap jugak kat dia..i have to go back..i miss home lah kan.. then he diam. i also mentioned that he doesn't have to go back with me aper..hehe. i can bring the girls by myself...but he macam cool to that idea. entah lah...boring ader..sedih ader...so in the end..all i can say is we'll see.
today..sean gi keje keluar pepagi..5.40 am. he starts work at 7.00..abis pukul 5 or 5.30 gitulah... lunch half hour. nanti sampai rumah pukul 6.30 gitu. all depends on the traffic. so pagi tadi..lepak punya lepak..around 10 am baru bangun buat keje sana sini. ingatkan nak keje kat luar but weather pulak sejuk seh. some of my hostas dah nampak frozen dah. mintak2 tonight will be better. tekak ni pulak teringin nak makan mee goreng. so apa lagi..buatlah mee kuning. i double the recipe...ah i think dapat jugak lah dalam 3 k3 4 kilo gitu. sarina helped me with the pasta machine. pastu terus buat mee goreng. maybe sometime next week, nak buat mee rebus sebab ada belen mee kuning tu. kak za and nora..kalau you all dekat..leh kasi mee kuning satu dua kilo...hahaha.
sarina is on spring break..tulah..weather pulak tak best..kalau tak dah suruh dia main kat laur jer..memekak kat rumah..main bola lah..tonyeh si sarah lah..sarah pulak asyik terpekik terlolong jer...ishhh...bingit..nak nak time tengah in this funky mood..aper lagi PMs lah ni..hehe. okaylah..nak nengok apa diorang tengah buat. i suruh they all kemas katil sendiri..last i heard, they were rolling the ball up and down the stairs...okaylah..later ppl.
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