as usual, things berserabut in the head. this and that, but can't really complain kan? since , in the bigger scheme of things, it is still alright. so then why, do i feel this way? i know why. but is the mind willing to accept. it already has, but still..sajer . it makes me feel better to have it written down somewhere. somewhere , where i can go back and read again.
i need to be constant in this matter. i feel that i am withdrawing myself more and more from all sorts of online activity, with the exception of playing games..haha! i enjoy that, because it does need any communication with anyone. sometimes it can get to be too overwhelming. can be stressful too. but on the whole, i really appreciate all the folks that have crossed my path and in turn making me feel less lonely.
i have been through this phase before. but i think this is the defining moment. i am who and what i am. i am not going to try to be a hypocrite. sometimes, keeping mum is better than being overly friendly or too concerned. i think the time may be coming soon for me to leave. but for now, it will be. who knows, this thing might be gone by then.
