stressed out lah....sori hor..

sarah modelling my handiwork :) black swarovki's bracelet

well...another entry after weeks of silence..hehe. actually i am very very tired. both physically and mentally. tired having to deal with the office stuff and tired because i am working at the library and not getting enough sleep. okay, the part about not getting enough sleep is actually my own fault. but what to do..i am wired that way. as much as it is somewhat fun in away of doing whatever i want when sean is not around, i discovered that i cannot go to sleep easily. i tend to stay way past midnight and falling asleep between 1-2.30 am each night. it is worse when i get caught up reading a book.

i am also fed up with things around here too..but nothing that i can do just yet. have to wait for another year before we decided where we would like to be. nothing major, just the usual nonsense. i don't bother talking to sean's ex-employee anymore. if they want something, the can him. i don't want to talk to them. and if sean wants to pay for their health insurance for the past mth...he can deal with them. i am not going to have anyhthing to do with it. unless, of course, i have no choice. but we'll see.

sarah will start her two day preschool programme on the 16th of august. sarina will be in 3rd grade. they are growing up veru fast. i still cannot believe that i 2 kids, let alone a child in 3rd grade..hehe. sarina has been very helpful this summer. last year, she spent a lot of time going to the pool and staying with the bickers. this year, for some reason, i felt that i should limit sarina's time with naomi. entah eh..i sort of felt like naomi seems to take advantage of sarina..but if she has to choose anyone to spend her birthday together..she will always choose sarina. i know this is just a defensive mother talking..but i am trying to raise sarina to 'not just follow the norm'. i would want her to be her own person..to feel that is okay to be different. in beliefs, ideologies and whatever..but of course..it must within the boundaries.

so, this summer, she has been hanging out with me at the library. for however long i have to be here, she'll stay with me except for the evenings. so now she knows how to shelf books accordingly, she knows how to cut the plastic covers for the books and she does odd jobs for the other librarians. they seem to like having her around too..which i think is definitely a blessing. where else can i bring my 7 year old daughter to work and work with me while i am working..heheh.





since i have been too busy with everything else, i have no time to get involve with another hobby of mine. beading. like the bracelets that i have made here. i really enjoy making these. i find it relaxing and also, kinda exciting when i get to see the final product. i do sell them..but only when ppl want something i guess. other than that, i just made things for friends and myself. been meaning to so something since a while back..but have not been able to complete the task. but insyallah..one at a time. maybe this mth will be different. even so, with me trying to cut back my hours here, i still have to work about 79 hours this mth. for a part timer..this is a lot :) but rezeki jangan di tolak eh..haha. there were a couple of times where i thought that i would like to quit altogether. but somehow..i do not have the heart to tell my director. she is such a nice person and easy to work with. like i said, saperlah kasi datang keje bawak anak sekali..hahaha.


i also know that i owe a tag..i will do it in the next entry. i have scanned some old pictures that i have of me. they are really old..and blurry pulak tu..my mom was the one who took the pictures..hahaha. okaylah..sib baik today is a very quiet day at the library. so i figured might as well try and update here before i really drag my feet :) to all..have a good weekend okay :) and happy national day..merdeka! merdeka!..hahahahhahahah... oh forgot..if you want to see more of what i had done..you can go here :)