vonage and other stuff...

itasca state park, minnesota

hmm..tap tup tap tup..dah nak dekat seminggu eh i tak update. a bit busy and well, mmg takder mood sikitlah to be frank. but, apa nak buat..dah nak jadi camtu.

first things first, vonage :) well, it works. after however many weeks that i had this thing, only recently was it giving me a litle bit of a problem. nothing major really, just that sean could not access some of the msg boards that he's been reading. well not quite that, but some peak oil sites lah. rectified the problem today. it's the vonage adapter, but solved it by going through the d-link router instead. well, more like the d-link is directly connected to the DSL modem and the vonage adapter/modem has to go through d-link. it works well now. the fee, i got umlimited calls, for $30 per mth including taxes and calls to singapore or wherever is at $0.01 per minute. my calls to singapore so far are only $2.00 the most. that means, i have been talking for 200 minutes..hehe. it's worth it i tell you. apparently, there's a cheaper package with another provider, but i can't remember the name lah. need to find out about that though. so give it a try, hey first mth free and if you don't like it, you can send it back. all free..so they say. :)

itasca state park, one of the wild flowers growing there.

so what else has been happening over here. bouts of bad weather. two tornadoes touched down near us. we got chunks of hail, golf ball size or bigger. damaged the roofs to the cars ..well any exposed part actually. good thing about insurance, most of it will be covered. but still, that is almost like a grand that we have to fork out to repair both cars. but at least it's just that. at least it wasn't totaled like being carried away in a tornado and such. i am so done with the bad weather. like today, i was supposed to take the girls swimming, but it's humid outside and forecast calls for severe thunderstorm, with damaging winds and hail.

the field of ferns...at the headwaters site.

this weekend will be my first catering business exp. well, i just volunteered my time actually helping a friend. we're fixing thai food. it's a no brainer, but who knows. hopefully all will go well eh :) will try and marinade the satay today or tonight..hehe. i am so in a lazy mood. actually kinda out of sorts too.

the headwaters, where the Mississippi river begins

i have to say though, some things have been on my mind. i tried putting it aside, but it persists. thought that i was at peace, but i guess, there's still a small part of me that is kinda perturbed. you know how it is right, when you want to say something, but it will not be taken the way you meant it. that, it gets tiring after so many times of trying to rectify the situation only to be blamed for being at fault. like that lah...so with that in mind, maybe i should just shut up. :) but maka nyer i am just a simple plain human being, full of flaws and faults, i cannot just sit there and shut the hell up..hehe. but i do have to admit that in some ways, i am better at it than others. i can take a lot of abuse. i keep it pent up inside, and hope that it will go away. most times i just let it roll off my shoulders, but sometimes, it hurts too much. and where do i go from there?

not everything is black and white....

life is too short to think about these things kan. i should focus on the more positive aspects of stuff. like looking forward to going for a swim this monday at the lake. hopefully the weather will cooperate. maybe the waters will wash my blues away. father's day was nice, in a way. not nice for sean because i was being super bithcy. really no joke. kesian dia. so will make up for this another time. we also did not celebrate it proper with him. we went to visit his parents. but still had a good time.

it is always raining in my head....

back to what i was saying, i think, the gist of my writing this all down, is to let everyone know, that i am here and will always be here. that i can be reached, via blogger, multiply and email. if you do not know my email address, here it is: bunkerangs@hotmail.com. for me, communication goes both ways. it's not just a one way sort of thing you know. i felt that i have put in effort into getting in touch with ppl that i know. and i know that most ppl are busy, so they could not write as often as they would want to. :) which is fine, but once in a while, it would be nice for me to receive a warm hello. and as much as i may not seem fair to some, i do try my best to be just that, fair that is. it is already bad enough for me, to be away from my family and my friends. to be so alone here sometimes. takder senda gurau from my siblings and all that. don't get me wrong, i am happy, but at times, melancholy sets in. sometimes, it comes and goes, while other times, some unwanted event will trigger it. but for ppl to say things, which i believe is not warranted, just hits me below the belt lah.

when it rains, it pours

but to each his own. my apologies, to anyone and everyone that i have come across, if i had at any given moment offended you. be it in my actions or my writings. especially to you, like what i had written above, i am here. will always be here for you. the doors swing both ways. i hope, you will look at the situation again, with a clear mind and see it for what it is. should it still be the same as you thought it was, nothing i say will change your views. but, if there is still an inkling in you the desire to stay in touch, drop me a line, insyallah, i will welcome you with open arms as how i have always had.