what made me want to continue after more than a year's absence? i don't know, but safe to say that on and off, i do get the urge to share what the girls had done and what had happened. but i never did because..because..because..i guess, we'll just leave it at that.
and why start now? well, i am mostly on FB as you know but sometime last week, two ppl added me to their contact list. one i remember from blogdrive days :) now dah besar pun, is married and even have a family of her own. isn't that amazing? from being single and now having a child. or some other contacts that has kids or babies when we first got to know one another and now anak dah besar. ada dah masok pre-school, dah naik primary and so on so forth. although i have never met any one of them personally, it is so nice to be able to keep in touch. walaupun the interaction is limited to cyberspace :)
the other person who added me, whom i have never gotten the pleasure of interacting with, told me that she had been following my blog and complimented me on it. hee hee hee! yer lah ni ketawa shy, shy konon..wahahah! i was flattered. so much so that i went to re-read my posts.
and this is what i discovered. this is a lot more than just a blog to me i realised. this is where i penned or typed rather, my feelings, my thoughts and most importantly, the joys and the frustrations the girls had given me :) more than anything, this is where i found out about stuff that they had done which i had forgotten. if it wasn't for this blog or blogs, i wouldn't have remembered mr. moustache and mr. armpit ( where sarina took a permanent red marker and drew a moustache on sarah's face complete with freckles and also coloured the arm pits red, for arm pit hair..hahaha) . i would have forgotten stuff which sarah had said to sarina . all hilarious now, but wasn't back then :)
i also have come to terms i think witht a few things. that it does not matter. all that matters, is i am at peace and that's all there is to it. stuff that happened in the past, serves as lessons and i think it's time that i don't think about it too much. as they say, shit happens. and it is how we deal with the aftermath is what is impt. should someday our paths cross again and we are able to look at things from a different perspective, alhamdullilah, and should it not, all i can say is , Allah knows best :)
so here i am, again :) and here's to a not so new beginning..haha!
taken last year. they have grown, with different antics. they are the same yet very different, if that even makes any sense :)
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I think keeping this blog is a good idea like you said,years down the road,we can go back and read the things we jot down on here,silly or not:P
The girls just have purely harmless sense of good humour.Whether it raises our eyebrows with the things that comes out of their mouths or add more white hair to our already grey coloured hair,they are still our kids and we love them to death.
And hey who says only boys are fun and wacky!?:)
zee, tulah, it didn't dawn on me until this past week, where i have been re-reading stuff. and i figured, aside from this kan, i need to copy and keep whatever i have written on a folder somewhere..hehe!
ni kira macam those drama lah kan, nanti sean and i dah tua, dah tak ingat apa2 maybe and the girls will find these writings :) or i can always use the stories to blackmail them..wahahahahah!
i know, that's why i always tell ppl who told us that we need to have another one, or need to have a boy, that with these two girls, i don't need boys at all..hehe! cukuplah dia dua beradik yang make me change into tarzan betina :)
They have grown so much kan Rosma:)We have grown more:))))))))Insya'Allah,positively lah though at the same time, tak dinafikan,mcm I ni,kkdg senang lupa2.Heeee...
Selamat berkebun nanti...jgn lupa tanam kucai,stoberi,lemon,apple dan macam2 lagi..am sure your yard cukup besar untuk tanam2 semua tu and more..
oklah..*hugs* to you n girls..miss u all!
wahhh was that me, mentioned in your post?? so honoured, you know! welcome back sis rosmah. i will keep coming back for more, if you have :)
welcome back puan rosma :p
read your invite via FB..and thanks for keeping me in the loop.
your girls have indeed grown up so much, just after a year.
nora
@lemon tea ;)
sri - ah ah lah. as they grow , we grow too. alah samalah dengan i. that is why kena constantly remind myself over and over again. but kadang tulah ada yang terlepas jugak..hehe!insyallah besar..but lemon tak leh tanam lah. climate too cold time winter..hehe!
faizah - ah ah lah saper lagi :) time i kenal you, you were still single tau. and then now dah kawin and ada baby :) insyallah, i guess this serves as my personal journal for the girls..hehe!
nora - thank you cik nora. alhamdullilah i think i have come to terms with everything. and hence, i think i should be doing this more for myself :)
Velcome! Mudah2an pisang tak bebuah dua kali. For me its different now. Tried to blog, but too painful bila teringat kisah2 lama. Kat blog pun kena attack, FB pun kena attack. For no reason. So now I am very sure its not them. Its me...
kak za..hehe! i hear you. i pun was feeling like that. but now i think i dah managed to overcome it lah insyallah. tulah i re-read kan..banyak yang i tulis pasal the girls. ni kira macam record keeping for me lah..hehe! sean pun cakap, need to print it so that ada record..hehehe! alah kak za, ppl don't know what we have to go through here, sometimes it is easier to be one way and not the other. apa2 pun, maybe ni seme dah tulisan. if it's meant to be, it will be undone, one way or another :)
and yes..mintak mintak tak lah berbuah not only dua kali..but tiga empat kali eh..wahaha!
Btw,kenapa si Kakak nak sembunyik bawah meja dalam gambar tu?heheh and si adik have this look on her face"oh get over it Sarina!n mum,hurry up n take a pix,im eating!"hehe
alah you bukan tak tau kakak tu..hehe! ada jer dia buat spoil gambar..yang sarah tu kan..biasalah..hahaa! one time i nak amik gambar dia dua beradik ni kan..it took me several takes because of their shenanigans. mana sarina dengan muka selenger dia..and sarah exactly like this..dengan mata kuyu dia :)
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